Psalm 139:14-16 – “For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be” (NIV).
Practically newlyweds, my husband and I stumbled out onto our first support-raising adventure. I say stumbled because, although we—we meaning my husband—read a few books on the topic, we still didn’t have much of an idea as to what we were doing. Frankly, it showed as it nearly ate us alive. My attitude toward it was basically, “Since Jason was the one whom God called into youth ministry, then it was his responsibility to take care of the financial end of things. My job as a good wife was to tag along and give him high-fives when we got paid.” My hands didn’t see much action.
No matter the amount of how much or mainly how little we got paid, what I was missing was the beauty of these verses and how they impacted raising support. I had long committed Psalm 139:14-16 to memory and even treasured its meaning. However, I had these verses so compartmentalized to being something I pondered when I struggled with low self-esteem that the magnitude of this truth didn’t seep into my life as we labored along the support-raising journey.
Here’s what I missed: My loving God took delight in crafting me with all my gifts and abilities to be used by Him—even me, a tag-along spouse—then ordained each of my days so that I would grow to reflect His glory. I now understand that, in the days long before I was born, He ordained even my support-raising journey to be used to display His majesty. In a sense this journey is the perfect time, I would dare even say the perfect gift, to make the needed space to understand how intricately my Creator crafted me and shout of His greatness.
This Christ-centered perspective roots me in the now and keeps me grounded in how God is shaping me to be used wherever I am. It gives me the space I need in all the chaos and excitement of future opportunities to worship God and lead others out of that worship in the present. It even helps me to realize that there is a greater purpose to this journey then just raising money, a resource He readily gives in His timing. It’s when God’s ultimate purpose for my life of transforming me to be like His Son shines far above my drive for my wants and worldly goals.
When my husband and I first started down the path of fundraising, we skipped out of the gate like frolicking deer and ended up like road kill. Our first experience was so bad it almost wrecked me from doing ministry all together. I was so focused on the money, the task, the excuses that I missed a loving God who cradled me along a difficult path that served for transformational purposes. I don’t want you to make that same mistake. Discover a loving God now in these moments. Rest in Him. Trust in the God who already knows the path before you because He is the One who laid it out. He will use you. Just don’t miss those opportunities to delight in your Daddy along the way.
- Worship God for how he has created you for your ministry.
- Reflect on how you have seen God’s love during the support-raising journey.
- Tell others about how God created you and what He is doing now in your life.
*First posted April 26, 2016 on Godandelephants.com